Thursday, October 2, 2008 @ Thursday, October 02, 2008
a thousand apologies
for the longest time in my life, i've never known how selfish i was.
how i'd lash out on people who hurt me, just to protect myself from the pain and just walk away without thinking about the other party.
and it just hurts like a bitch when you realise how much harm you've done.
and to add on to that, i didn't apologize.
sorry just seems to be the hardest word sometimes, i guess. *cough*cheesy*cough*
and when they aren't in your daily life anymore, you then know how much they mean to you.
and you have to put up a facade just to look happy for other people.
but, it's so, so incredibly tiring..
and crying it out seems to be one of the bestest things to do right now.
and knowing that your family is always there for you helps a whole load.
i've never known how caught up i was with my friends to actually care about my family.
oh, and God.
it's like the only time now that i ever read the bible is when i'm in trouble.
maybe i'm getting punished for being such a bitch.
alright cerelia, it's time to do some damage control.
Thursday, October 2, 2008 @ Thursday, October 02, 2008
a thousand apologies
for the longest time in my life, i've never known how selfish i was.
how i'd lash out on people who hurt me, just to protect myself from the pain and just walk away without thinking about the other party.
and it just hurts like a bitch when you realise how much harm you've done.
and to add on to that, i didn't apologize.
sorry just seems to be the hardest word sometimes, i guess. *cough*cheesy*cough*
and when they aren't in your daily life anymore, you then know how much they mean to you.
and you have to put up a facade just to look happy for other people.
but, it's so, so incredibly tiring..
and crying it out seems to be one of the bestest things to do right now.
and knowing that your family is always there for you helps a whole load.
i've never known how caught up i was with my friends to actually care about my family.
oh, and God.
it's like the only time now that i ever read the bible is when i'm in trouble.
maybe i'm getting punished for being such a bitch.
alright cerelia, it's time to do some damage control.
